Yesterday, I blogged about the decision of succumbing to the trials and disappointments of my life, (slings and arrows) or doing something radical to change my destiny (take arms against a sea of troubles and by opposing end them). Shakespeare’s Hamlet was a man living in times when being of royal blood was really, really complicated. I mean talk about crappy family reunions! He spends his lifetime having to look over his shoulder, preparing for the next evil plot against himself, his family (the ones that he liked) and if that was not enough, there was no central heating, bloodletting was the cure-all for everything, and you couldn’t even take the first bite of your dinner or have a nap without wearing earmuffs without risk of being poisoned.
Hamlet’s dilemma, in my never-to-be-humble opinion, is similar to my own: is this all there really is to life? Do I really want to continue in this career track, knowing that at any moment, I may come to a tragic end? Or, do I put on my big girl panties and just get on with it, and maybe make a few changes in my life, and tell the voices in my head that their services are no longer required. Hmmm… (ok, maybe Hamlet would have said hosen instead of big-girl panties.)
Let’s apply Hamlet’s question, To be or not to be… to my current situation.
To be Jan A, B or C? Let us evaluate:
Jan A is cautious, wary, critical, easily hurt. At her worst, she lives in the present but looks over her shoulder at the past, reliving and retelling her stories, disguised as cautionary tales, but more accurately using them as a cloaking device to predict disappointment and attack and therefore protecting herself from getting hurt. At her best, Jan A has keen insight, can pick apart problems and knit together solutions, seeing the potential traps and developing strategies to avoid disaster. She is the keeper of the keys to the part of her brain where confidence and tenacity reside.
Jan B is creative, flighty, easily distracted and she lives in a fantasy world. At her worst she gets lost in the process of creating pretty things that will impress others and cause them to love her more and overlook her obvious flaws. At her best, Jan B has keen vision and can see the bigger picture, envision a desirable outcome, create something out of nothing and work tirelessly to achieve something of great value to others. However, she will exhaust herself in the effort and often forgets to ask for help. She is the keeper of the keys to the part of her brain where goals and dreams reside.
Jan C is a healthy combination of her sisters A&B. She is confident, creative, careful, visionary, outgoing, tenacious, innovative, and has the power of discernment that enables her to know real dangers from imagined, healthy relationships from toxic and she has a deep-rooted faith in God, acknowledging that He has blessed her with spiritual gifts that enable her to fulfil His plan for her. At her best, Jan C has the ability to give of herself (time, knowledge, resources) without an attachment to the expectation of reward or recognition. She works with a consciousness of love (unselfish giving). At her worst, Jan C allows either one or both of her sister’s to steal the show Consequently, she suffers from the resultant abuse and inevitable disappointment that comes from feeling unappreciated, and taken advantage of.
Clearly, Jan A and Jan B are like candles that have become unstable nearing their end, noticeably chaotic and sputtering brightly as their fuel becomes exhausted.
To be or not to be… there is no question that Jan C has to BE, because her sisters cannot go on much longer.
Therefore, Jan C must step up and proclaim her right to live an authentic life, free from the clutches of a myriad of misunderstood and misinterpreted life lessons, creating a crystal clear vision of who she always was and is meant to be.
Claim you destiny Jan C and let your sisters go with love. Their time here is done. It’s time for you to take charge. You hold the keys to the part of your brain where contentment, peace, serenity, forgiveness, and faith reside along with confidence, tenacity , and your goals and dreams.
It's me... Jan C (see?)
It's me... Jan C (see?)
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