Gratitude

I am to start a gratitude journal. I am procrastinating in this venture. Does that mean that I do not feel grateful? Does it mean that I don't see the value in documenting my gratitude? Am I just lazy or is something else at foot?

I did some research about gratitude. Gratitude is a state of consciousness.  It is an experience of living in a state of joy.  It is the recognition and expression of appreciation for what is. An attitude of acknowledgement.

Maybe its just my mood or hormones talking, but today, I am not feeling the gratitude vibe at all.  It's not as though I don't recognize that I am blessed beyond measure, because I know that God has heaped blessing upon blessing on me throughout my life, and certainly throughout these last several weeks.

Therefore, today, I will be grateful for His blessings:

I am blessed that He dropped me off on this part of the planet.  A peaceful, safe place where I can proclaim my faith without fear of persecution, and walk out my front door without risk of a bullet whizzing over my head.

I am blessed with the many angels he has placed in my life, some of whom I know by name and some who I have yet to meet.

I am blessed by the fact that my fingers can type, formulate, touch, and caress.

I am blessed because my feet can bear the weight of my body and carry me where ever I need to go; and also for having shoes to protect my tender soles.

I am blessed by His confidence in me, that He has such an amazing plan for my life and that He has never forsaken me, even when I have been stubborn, wilful, and turned my back on Him in a misguided belief that free-will does not come without great cost to me.

I am blessed with a wonderful  husband, who has a gentle soul, and is going through this transition with me. He puts no pressure on me to rush back to a pay cheque and wants only the best for me, no matter what.

I am blessed with my children, my wonderful grown up, intelligent, loving, creative, brave children who are making their way in the world with integrity and making their mark on the world with love.

I am blessed with friends who will drop everything and come running when my life falls apart - they have seen me through incredibly hard, scary times.

I am blessed by God - His love for me; knowing that He is faithful and loves me unconditionally.

I am blessed by the experiences and conditions of life which are the gift wrapping for the invaluable gift of the essence of my life.  I must remember to take nothing for granted, but take time out of every day to notice the many blessings that God heaps on me.  Thank you God! I appreciate You!

It's me, Jan