Getting unstuck

Today, I am feeling a little stuck.  Whether it is lack of energy, or an overload of  information; I find myself at a cross road marked by a huge post with little signs pointing in every direction suggesting a different path...  and I'm just feeling a little stuck.

The question I must ask myself is "Am I really stuck or just waiting for Good Orderly Direction - God - to reveal next steps?" I acknowledge that according to His Divine Order, I am exactly where I am meant to be,waiting for the unfolding of my consciousness according to His perfect plan. I also recognize that when I wander off in search of things that are not in my best interest, I get horribly lost and set upon by a notorious gang of bandits AKA worry, fear, guilt and regret. So, if not stuck, then waiting for God. Eyes wide open, ears tuned, heart and soul exposed to His light.  Standing on my tippy toes, peering beyond the sign post and trying to catch a glimpse of what's ahead.

It would be so much easier if I had a road map with very clear directions... or better yet, a GPS! Yes, a GPS - a Godly Preference System - that gives me very specific instructions, turn-by-turn in order to get me to my destination.  A Voice that warns me in advance that a turn is 500 meters ahead, or a detour is necessary to overcome obstacles in my path. Even a warning 'ping' when I deliberately try to merge on to a toll road of my own choosing in order to avoid heavy traffic. Gee that would be nice.

So, if I am not stuck, and I am going to move ahead today in search of the next piece of the puzzle that is my life right now, I think it behooves me to pack some provisions for the journey:
1. Faith that the people, resources, information will come to me exactly when needed.
2. Patience as I undergo the necessary growth, strengthening and healing in order to obediently follow instructions.
3. Courage to follow said instructions to the letter, even when I get distracted by self-doubt (or squirrels) or besieged by fear.
4. Willingness to use my God-given skills and knowledge to fulfil His purpose.

It is difficult to see myself beyond where I am in this moment. Even more challenging, is figuring out how I will get to where I am meant to be.  God has blessed me with a colourfully creative mind that paints elaborate pictures (visions or fantasies?)  Some of these pictures end up being jewelry or quilts created with my own 2 hands. Other times, what I see is an event or a moment that happens in the future - hence the many deja vu moments I've experienced in my life. Sadly, I was misinformed by many well-meaning adults in my life, that these visions were nothing but daydreams and hence a waste of time; therefore I've not put much stock into them either...until now.

Here's a thought: I have made a commitment to do what God has sent me here to do. For many years, I have had a vague awareness of Him, but I was too scared or stubborn to ask about His particular plans for me in case He wanted me to do something I didn't want to do.  Here I am now, asking HOW, WHEN, and WHERE, and God is simply waiting for me to say yes.

Marianne Williamson, author of A Return to Love, says, "No matter what you can ask for, it is only a microscopic view of what God wants to give you!" If I am feeling stuck then it only due to my limited view of who and what I am meant to be. So, instead of telling God what I want, I simply need to ASK Him to show me what is in store for me and for the guidance in developing in myself whatever qualities and characteristics necessary to make His vision of me and for me into reality.

So, with faith I take a step forward and see what He puts in my path today.  Patiently, I await His answer to my questions and prayers, knowing that His vision for my is so much greater than anything I could imagine on my own. I summon up the courage by immersing myself in His word, and placing my life and will in His hands. Thus begins the journey of Jan. Can't wait to see where He takes me next, and will be sure to send post cards along the way!

It's me, Jan.